Happy Birthday My Guardian Angel...

-Super Kong and Little I at Ko's Kindy Concert in 1983-


7 years now since that morning in Zurich. It doesn't hurt as much anymore... But i still miss him every single day.


Just finished shoot. Showered and am trying to get some sleep. WaterWorks again with Nell earlier in the evening. It's good to let it out once in awhile. I feel much better now. :-)


I've got to try harder. I know it's not enough. It's always the case of "The mind is strong, but the flesh is weak"
Daddy said to me today, "You cannot expect God to perform miracles all the time. Lessen her load and meet her halfway. She is there to help you, to guide you... The rest is all up to you. And as the saying goes, God helps those who help themselves." Very wise man my Daddy is :-)

-Riding on Wings-

Some days...

--------------------Once upon a time, there lived a girl who feel in love with a Dream------------------------------

Some days it's harder to stay afloat. God knows I try. But the more I think I do, I fail. Miserably.

I want to believe. I really do.

I am trying to believe.

I'm trying to not think. I'm trying to not feel. I'm trying to forget.

I'm trying to stay awake. Dreaming isn't all that great when you have to wake up.

Reality isn't bad either.

I'm ok with Reality. Though we're not exactly the best of friends.

I'm ok. I really am.

I'm happy. Really, I am.

The problem with trying is that it makes it that much harder...