-Riding on Wings-

Some days...

--------------------Once upon a time, there lived a girl who feel in love with a Dream------------------------------

Some days it's harder to stay afloat. God knows I try. But the more I think I do, I fail. Miserably.

I want to believe. I really do.

I am trying to believe.

I'm trying to not think. I'm trying to not feel. I'm trying to forget.

I'm trying to stay awake. Dreaming isn't all that great when you have to wake up.

Reality isn't bad either.

I'm ok with Reality. Though we're not exactly the best of friends.

I'm ok. I really am.

I'm happy. Really, I am.

The problem with trying is that it makes it that much harder...

Leave me alone!

-Ministry Of Sound-

With my Peeps. My Home away from Home. :-)

Had an early wrap today. Day off tomorrow.

Wanna leave and raid the lok-lok van outside but they still look like they just got their engines started. I kinda like it here though. One reason being quite the obvious. :-) I still smell nice.

The R&B room was great. Was like our own private room. No-one was there.

I'm bored. Feet are tired. And i have the most comfortable pair of heels on (thanks to the kind people at Jaspal:-)). That's how long I've been standing.
I'm still glad i decided to come.

Gosh... The kids here look like they just got off training wheels. Do they even check IDs outside? Or is it that i'm way too old for this? Yeah... I feel old.

I want lok-lok NOW.

Mafia

I'm bored. Sleepy. This is hardly productive. Gotta get me one of them USB modems.

Mark Ng Kau

-Just saw this on the duty board. Hahaha!-

Just had sambal petai from the kedai Cina next door. Had a nap too. Still waiting for my next scene.

A first time for everything...

- Never before have i ever been required to use a 'pancake' on Ampang Medikal... Until tinggi-giler Dr. Khai came into the picture-



The air seems to be less thick today. Everyone seems a little happier.

We have no A.D

Hung out with Szu Vinh and Kel last night. Watched the repeat of the Olympics with a bowl of creamy Mama tom yum. I had a good day despite all the unnecessary drama at work. I love ma'boys. :-)

Am in between scenes. It's gonna be a looong day...

I've got to Live more. Be more Present. Try new things. Be adventurous for once, like I've always liked myself to be. Try new food. New places. New routine (what routine??). I'm a big fat bore.

There's a first time for everything, right?

... And then they all went Home...

-Time is all you have until you realise you don't have enough-



I did not get enough of Malacca.
I had fun this weekend. They have all gone home now and i miss them already.

Watched the closing ceremony of the Beijing games on the webcam with Mommy, Daddy, Ko and Gorby. Didn't get to see most parts of it cause my connection was wonky. Gorby just got a haircut and he looks too cute to be real. :-) Daddy says he looks like Chee Cheong Fun. Haha! Can't wait to see them.

I am way too sleepy now...

Also a little hungry...

Work tomorrow.

Malacca... Finally... :-)

These remind me of a trip to Singapore with my family when Ko and i were still kids. Daddy bit them into animal shapes and lined them on the side of a Haagendaz stall on Ochard Road.

Some things never change :-)

Change is good. Healthy. Normal. Inevitable. Vital.

Many things remain constant though... And i'd like them to stay that way. :-)

The sky is where the sea should be...

It's been almost a year to date since Frogway. A lot has happened since and i don't have any regrets. In fact, i am thankful it all happened the way it did.

Today was sorta my day off. Spent most of it trying to catch up on Sleep.


Had a whole durian mooncake. 1200 calories of durian mooncake. I made the shocking discovery only AFTER i had inhaled the last bit of durian fatcake. Best to read the pack before and not after... But it was worth every bite. :-)

Thankful

-What do i make of the butterflies?-

Can't wait till Friday.

Lychee cupcake by Wondermilk® is so Yum and is 99% sinful. I strongly recommend it.

Been over eating. I recently developed a deep deep love for eating. Nothing brings me more joy in KL than to raid the supermarket aisles and pigging out on my daybed watching Boston Legal and Grey's Anatomy. I just cannot stop munching. I think i need help... Seriously...
Or maybe it's PMS.
Our cameraman brought to work a 1kg chocolate cake his wife made that was so divine it made me a little dizzy. I swear i must have eaten more than a quarter.

Am looking forward to the weekend.

Had a fight scene earlier at the studio and got myself in a little accident. Knocked my ankle against the foot of the wheelchair during the scuffle while being tossed around by the 'gangsters' in the scene. It's a little swollen now. Bruised. But i can walk fine so it's not bothering me.

Just got my schedule till September 21. Gonna be shooting through Bulan Puasa.

Happy Snails are smiling at me.

I am happy today. I hope you are too. :-)

Many days and too many nights...

'It does't have to be hard.' My grandfather used tell me. If only it were all that easy.

He always made everything seem so easy.

I've forgotten how easy things could be now that he's gone...


... But i'm starting to remember again. :-)


I still miss him every single day.

Right 'Frame' of Mind?

Had a good dose of vitamin M&Y last week. I hardly ever see the girls but whenever we do meet, I ask myself why I don't see them often enough.

Ampang Medikal PC tomorrow. I was told they've changed the title...

I hope they have cupcakes...

I have just rediscoverd Mika...

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It doesn't have to be this hard, does it?

Sleep is very very late today..

Maybe i missed the boat tonight. My eyes feel sore.. My body aches in most parts. My mind seems to be enjoying the little dance it's doing with my emotions. I know what i need. But i'm just not getting any! What's wrong with me? Minor case of insomnia? Anxiety? What is it then?

Spent 400 good ones at Borders yesterday. Happiness. Ordered a few books from their warehouse in Tennessee. -Did i get the spelling right?-

'Don't dream, don't start.
Dreaming only wounds the heart.'

Tick tock goes the clock, tick tock, it never stops.

I need sleep. I need it right now.

I Never Had a Dream Come True... Till...

... the day that i found you... :-)

Sunday, July 20

Eyes a little sore.

Had weird dreams last night. Parts of it were good though. :-)

I like my new room.

Ketam bakar in Klang was more of a road trip than a dinner. Though the crabs were good, they weren't exceptional. But we had lotsa fun anyway. :-)

G looking for Azhar's shoes.

I've got one more scene. Then i'm free to go. Just got handed 3 more eps. More reading tonight.

And more of Alan Shore too. If only The Universe would bring me a man just like him. :-) life would be more than wonderful.

I think i have a crush on a fictional man.. Gosh.. I really need to get out more.

My bum hurts from sitting in the same position for the past 30 minutes. Is that normal?

MyKo and MyBi

Would you just look at that! I still can't stop laughing!

Prodigy

Mommy and Daddy just left. Still at the studio. Last scene. Penny, the little gem playing Aleena is an absolute STAR.

Can't wait to get back to my new room.

Thankful for exceptionally good guest stars on my episode. :-)

I still think of him quite often.

Daddy made me peanut soup. So good.. Yum.

Fei Yu Ching was flawless as usual. Got tickets for mom and di thanks to Leonard. Thank you Leonard!
　
One scene, one shot. Track in. My idea. Hehe.. :-D

Dream Lover.. Where are you?

I need to not think...

-Eroz the fluffy white lion-



Just popped half a pill.. Heart pounding. Thoughts taking a life of it's own. Am dead tired and desperately need sleep.

Pakod picking me up at 930 for my 1030 call.. Bought a little portable fan. Fits sungly in my scrubs pocket. Went all over 1-U looking for it. They're everywhere when you don't need them but nowhere to be seen when you do. Typical...

I miss Home..

Got a new sunflower for the room. :-)

Got 4 books from Borders yesterday. :-D

- Princess
- Daughters of Arabia
- Desert Royal
- The World According to Clarkson

Love Jeremy. Funniest Brit alive.

Feeling better now. The pill must have just kicked in. Or is it just my mind?

Happy Birthday Mommy Dearest!

Just woke up from a nap on one of the hospital beds in the store. Sleep left when heat crept in. It's like a sauna in here when the AC is turned off for the takes. On the up side.. It's great that we have beds to rest on in between scenes... :)

A little thirsty but the shutters are closed..

My Mommy's Birthday today. Happy Birthday dearest Mommy!

16 hours and counting..

He looks like he seriously needs a Tampon. :-)

Am doing a scene where a patient of mine vomits blood after having a squabble with me. Drama, drama.. I likey.

Long day today.. 16 hours and counting..

The poor guy is behind me now trying to clean the rose syrup off his whole face and body. Kesian.. :-S

I so mengantuk la.. One more scene left. But am having fun, nonetheless.. ;-)

I have 3 words to utter in the next scene.. 'En. Embong...', 'En. Embong...' and 'Huh?'.

Nice..

42 Below Cocktail World Cup

I expected flying bottles, acrobatic maneuvers and broken glasses. But none of that.. When i was asked to judge this 'bartending' competition they did not mention anything about getting pissed drunk.. I'm on my way there. Into the second round of judging and i'm having a blast! The man on the mic tonight is the wonderfully witty Will Quah. He is providing the bulk of the entertainment tonight if you ask me. This boy is entertaining as hell!
Eileen is in KL. Can't wast to see her. :-)

Peggy Back

Finally got Peggy back. Thanks to a certain thespian. I love you babe! You ROCK! Got a whole bunch of stuff back too. And also some stuff that don't belong to me which i am going to return.
Brought back memories.. For a few moments i forgot how cruel a person can be and shed a few tears. But hey, am glad it all happened the way it did. Tought me many valuable lessons. I wouldn't be this happy today if it hadn't. But i still miss my Tashi a great deal. I will never forget the look on her face when i said goodbye. Told her I'll see her soon. It's been almost a year now. Funny how they can always tell.. Gosh, i miss her.. I hope she's well.

Sleep now.
Good night Peggy.

I am Sin Ning

I know it's late. I know it's time to sleep. My bum is glued to this couch. I knew i'd be stuck here so before i sat down, i cleverly placed my make-up remover and cotton on the coffee table just inches away from where I've parked my lazy a**. I'm not exactly lazy, y'know.. Or i wouldn't be typing this with my thumb right now. I wanted to swap channels to watch the repeat of Idol but that was probably an hour ago.

I had dinner with Auntie Annie and we joined the Hong So bunch at Coffee Bean after. Had a good laugh trying to throw out words from my very limited Sin Ning vocabulary. Not my fault Daddy didn't pass on the dilect to his kids, right? Still not too late though.. :$
Also found out that not only Auntie Annie and i are Sin Ning, but Eric too. He is also as hopeless as i am. A disgrace to our clan. Got home and started speaking to Daddy in Sin Ning. He asked me to stop before i said something foul. Also cause he got really tired of correcting every single word that came out from my mouth. :-(

I should sleep now.

But i still have my make-up on.

Maybe I'll swap channels.. :-)

Wah.. So early ah?

Woke up before 9. Haven't in a long while. I miss work. But am not ready to leave home just yet. Ho-chiak, ho-khun.. :-)

Am in the car with Mommy and Daddy waiting for Chings.

Hungry..

So what's new..? Lemme see...

Developed a sudden interest in cornflakes and fruit yogurt, David Archuleta, Readers Digest and bargain air-fares.

Of course I also have Facebook and Google to keep me busy. Not to mention the occasional dose of The Campaign Trail and LA Ink.

I'm gonna miss this.

:-)

Queensbay with Mommy

One my dream cars to own. Only second to the Pre-A 356. Yummy isn't it? It's so fun to look at. You should see the interior. So well kept. Am at DOME now with Mommy having a Peach and Raspberry Teacake with heavenly ginger tea. Easy Sunday. Love it. Am looking forward to work at the end of the month but not looking forward to going back to the City..

The Biggest !@#$%^& Migraine EVER!!!!!!!!

Anything this big deserves some sort of recognition at least so here it is.. A blog entry on the biggest most earth-shattering migraine EVER to date. If I could measure it on a Richter scale, it would have been a '9.6'. Seeing as the largest earthquake of the century (which struck Chile in 1960) was only a 9.5, this 'migraine' I had was pretty HUGE. I even got a jab on my behind as a souvenir.

The pain is gone but I still feel a little nauseous and everything now looks like over exposed photographs.

My New Friend

You have no idea how long I've been waiting to visit the tigers. The experience was definitely worth the bumpy 3 hour ride from Bangkok and more. Remarkable..

Am still in Bangkok. Leaving tomorrow on the 2pm flight. Will probably post more pictures and write a little bit more.